school is starting:/

Time really flies,i am starting year 2 soon.I got into Customer relationship management,it was not my first choice but i guess i just have to hang on there and clear school as soon as i can,it not time for me to complain because i have no right to do that anymore.School now have really getting more and more senseless to me.I just can't make myself look forward going to school,the thought of my friend graduating earlier than make me feel depressed and alone. It so unbelievable how things have change since everyone graduated from secondary school,everyone have move on to their new life,it seem that only me have me rooted on the ground,static since 2009.Changes is certainly unavoidable to everyone,but i had always tried to ignore my problem and refuses to face the challenges of life...always choosing the easy way out.I know that its not the correct attitude to life.I want to be a better person,a person with confidence,cheerfulness,outgoing and outspoken... i want to achieve my dream,there is no reason why i cannot achieve them.Year 2 will not stop me from graduating from NYP.I want to move on to another step of life,i want to step out to the society with confidence and find a suitable job for myself(most probably police or social worker???) although i am still holding on to this fading dream of mine being a singer???Anyway i am looking toward a life where i have a house of my own and i can live responsibly to myself and the society.i don't want to regret any decision when i am old,that why i refuse to give up no matter how difficult life seem to be.I don't want to become a liability to anyone when i get old,i want to someone who is able to contribute to world,a giver...that whats make me happy:) Even though i do feel tired in some point of life,music always push me on.By the way i learnt of a new song that i really like which is "If" by kim taeyeon of snsd and "i look to you" by whiteney houston.Finally i hope for a smooth journey for my year two life,i am really looking forward to the end of my poly life so i can go on to the next part of my life.